2.09.2012

Thankful to have had her in my life.

This week I am dealing with losing someone that I was close to for the first time, we lost Nonnie.

I have been very blessed to have never had to go through something like this is my 28 years so it has been quite a confronting time in my life.

It wasn't a tragic loss, but it was still a loss.

When someone is 90 years old, has had a wonderful full life surrounded so closely by love and family it can blessing. Her time had come to rejoin the people that were too special for this world.

Losing a grandmother is always going to be sad but somehow I believe that losing Nonnie was sadder than most. She wasn't just a grandmother that you see on birthdays and Christmas's. She wasn't the grandmother that sent you a card with $20 in it for your birthday and your mum made you call up to thank her. She was a part of my everyday life, she was another mum.

Growing up, I just wished we were like any other family. You know, with a grandmother that lived in her own house in a different town, the one that I was just talking about up there ^^^. I didn't know at the time that I was actually one of the lucky ones.... Unfortunately, I only know that now. The funny thing is she used to tell me that too. "When I'm gone... blah blah blah". Nonnie, you were right!

Don't get me wrong, our relationship was far from rosy. We clashed like no tomorrow. The fights, the tears but that's just the way we rolled. I think that's just one of the joys of living with someone, you have to take the good with the bad. I never doubted that she loved me and I know she knew I loved her.

I am lucky now to have any one of the millions of memories that we created to chose from to remember her.

So today, I really am thankful just to have had her in my life.

RIP Nonnie xx

Linking up today for 'Thankful Thursday' with KateSaysStuff.









25 comments:

  1. I'm sorry for your loss. No matter what age or how good and long a life they had, it is still very hard to say goodbye,and to adjust to life without them here. I have one grandparent still alive, and I often am NOT thankful to still have her. She can (and usually does) drive us all insane. Thanks for the reminder that we should appreciate her while she is still here.

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    1. I think thats why they leave such a void in our lives when they were there to drive us crazy and now they are not. Thankyou for your kind thoughts xx

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  2. I'm sorry for your loss. I understand what your going through, my nan was always a few houses away - and use to take us to school and we spent most of our time with her afterschool - like a 2nd mum.

    My nan died in 2008, the week that my entire family arrived in Perth for a family birthday (I'd come from the UK, my sister and her family from Townsville), my cousins from America. She knew we were all together - from great grandchildren up..
    She waited until we all said our goodbyes and passed away that night. She didn't want a big funeral and just a small family and close friends wake.

    It was like she had it all planned.

    Sending big hugs xx

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    1. They are so sneaky, I think your right, it def sounds like your nan had in planned! Thanks for your thoughts and hugs lovely xx

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  3. I am so sorry for your loss! But I'm sure er beautiful memories will keep you going through each day! What a amazing long life she lead! What an inspiration! Thinking of you this week!!!

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    1. Thank you! She did lead a long amazing life, your right. Just need to keep those memories floating around xx

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  4. What a lovely post! Your feelings of loss are valid no matter what age the person was that you lost. It still leaves a hole in your heart. I love that you have such meaningful memories!

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    1. Thankyou for your thoughts SportyMummy xx

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  5. I was very very close to my Grandma too, so I know a little of what you're going through. My Grandma was a huge part of my life, she lived up the road from us when I was small, and my husband and I bought our first home next to her. We lived next door to her for four years before she died. It still hurts now, even a year and a half later- but it's not as bad. Im glad you had such a great Grandmother.

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    1. Thankyou Robyn, we are the lucky ones to have had them so involved in our life. xx

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  6. I had a special grandma too. I think of her frequently still and she passed away nearly 15 years ago.

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    1. Its lovely that you can still think of her after so long has passed. xx

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  7. I am sorry for you loss - tragic or not, a loss is a loss and grief is hard to work through x

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  8. I too am thankful to have known Nonnie. The past few days I've had a little smile and a giggle to myself about some memories I have of Nonnie, like arriving at your house before you would be home from work and Nonnie feeding me her special Italian biscuits. Or the countless times she would ask me if i was pregnant just because my top was a bit loose. She always greeted me with a big smile and hug, and for that i am grateful to have felt her to be my honorary Nonnie. xx

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    1. Oh you just made me laugh, yes, you were always pregnant!

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  9. Reading this made me remember my Grans. One passed away 35 yrs ago and the other 24 yrs ago. My aunt gave me my Gran's engagement ring as I was the only granddaughter andi have since used the diamond from her engagement ring, my Mom's engagement ring and my engagement ring to make a new engagement ring for myself. I think of my Mom and my Gran whenever I really look at my ring. I kiss both my Gran's dearly.
    Love, hugs and positive energy !
    Me

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    1. That is so special that you have something to remember and remind you of them. I hope that in so many years to come I can say i think of her regularly. xx

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  10. Oh Steph I am sorry :(

    Sending heaps of love to you all xoxox

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  11. So sorry for your loss. You were blessed. My grandmothers died when I was seven and one, so I have very few memories at all.
    She sounds like she was a very special lady.

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    1. She was a special lady.. Thanks for your kind thoughts Jess x

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