3.02.2015

What poeple didn't tell me about sending my child off to school...

Two months ago, I was not in a great place.

It sounds so dramatic that sentence... But it's true.

I was in turmoil regarding my first born child, my baby girl Boo, heading off to school for the first time.

Boo was starting Prep.

Everyone joked about crying in the car after drop off. Wear sunnies to make sure your kid doesn't see. Do something fun after drop off to distract yourself they said. All light hearted stuff really!

But here is what they didn't say. 

Sometimes, those things above just don't cut it!

For the weeks leading up to that first day, I was an absolute nut case. Not funny haha nutcase, I mean, sort your S#%T out kinda nut case.

I cried at night. I felt sick at the thought that it was getting closer each day. I was literally consumed by it all.

I had this feeling that things were never going to be the same, and I didn't like it.

I missed her so much with just the thought and it was breaking my heart.

Two months on...

I can now process those feelings and say that as everyone told me, it was all okay.

Yes. I was a nut case and yes, I did sort my S#%T out.

She wasn't heading off to boarding school, just 5 minutes down the road. And she was still my baby when she got home.

I still miss her when she is there. But 3:10pm comes around pretty quickly.

Hindsight hey.